Kinda regret eating all that nutella right now…
Tomorrow, I play for my team. Not my family, not my school, not myself, my team. Because they know what it’s like to wake up at 5:30am in the morning and train under the sun six times a week. They know what it’s like to play without a coach. They know what it’s like to keep on trying, doing, and practicing until they have to leave for class, starting their school day tired. They’ve been there, I’ve been there, we’ve all been there together. And despite all of my shortcomings, they still have my back. This time tomorrow, I’ll have theirs too. I’ll do whatever it takes.
If you’ve ever doubted yourself, walk deep into any forest. Notice how the trees still stand even though they are given no recognition. Walk along any stream. The water still flows, though no one stops to praise it. Watch the stars late at night; they shine without acknowledgment. Humans are just the same. We are made out of the same elements as these beautiful wonders. Always remember your beauty and self worth.
Sadness is surprisingly crippling. You don’t really have the energy to do anything, especially if it’s energy devoted to trying to make you happy, because sometimes you just kind of want to wallow in your feelings. You’re somehow happier listening to sad songs than happy songs, and your favourite sweets just don’t give you the content and satisfaction you once had after eating them. Yet you eat them anyway hoping against hope that your appetite is a joke and you actually want to eat them. It doesn’t cure you of your blues, and it just makes you feel worse, because they taste like ash, you feel like a fat ass, and you’re not any less sad.
I don’t know why, but I’ve been feeling so uninspired lately. I feel like I’m sad. I think I am, but I’m not too sure. It’s weird, I know. And I don’t know why I’m feeling like this. Maybe it’s just lack of inspiration and motivation. Or maybe it’s me. Making mistakes all the time. Feeling lazy. Unmotivated. It’s just… 2014 is not turning out the way I want it to be so far.
So my blog got featured in this magazine! Pretty darn cool. Take the time to read it, whether or not because of listentolee! It’s classy, interesting, and insightful. Those are some pretty good word combinations over there, so I hope you’ve clicked on the magazine by now.
my music blog lives!