Is there a switch for sadness? Because I want to turn mine off.
hey guys I just got my period today so if we can all just ignore that previous post of mine I’d appreciate it very much thanks
Today at Project Pie, I got emotional over pizza. Or lack thereof, to be exact. All I wanted was my pizza. I was even the first to order it, but my family got theirs first! I just wanted to eat it and get it over with so I could study, but no, my pizza never came. And I ended up overthinking things. I thought, “damn it, I could be studying right now!” and it made me feel awful. I hate the feeling of wasting my time. Plus, I was hungry. So I tried not too cry.
I failed. Miserably.
I’m not a very emotional person, but I think maybe the problem with that is when I do get emotional, I get teary eyed. I noticed that when I would feel strongly towards something, I would have a hard time keeping my voice even and expressing myself. It seems that I lose all control of my tear ducts and they end up pouring forth like I broke my arm or cracked a rib, when simply I just have something to say.
So yes, I cried over my lost pizza. I don’t even know why I was feeling so strongly about it, but I couldn’t bear to face the pizza people knowing I would shed tears. Luckily, my brother sensed that I was getting teary eyed and he went up to ask for my pizza for me. He came back with a free one that I couldn’t eat because it had pork. He said they lost my order and they’re making mine now.
But I was okay by then. Because I tried not to think about my wasted time. Instead, I thought, “Why the hell am I crying over a freaking pizza damn it,” and I guess it worked because I finally stopped.
I had dinner with my Mom awhile ago, and she said I was a good writer! Yay for accomplishment. Gotta improve though. I honestly like writing, but only when I feel like it. When I have something to say. And lately I’ve been writing a lot, which means a lot has been going on in my mind.
It’s the feels. They’re on monster mode. So many things have been going on, I don’t know why I’m even writing right now when I should be doing shit. But I just need an outlet, and writing here is good practice.
So yeah. Expect more writing. Nothing too fancy, though. Just feels. Freaking feels.
And does anyone have any practice writing suggestions? Creative writing exercises? It’d be good to do some. Please suggest?
It’s weird being happy and sad. It sounds crazy, but it’s possible. I guess two separate events can affect you at the same time. And sometimes one is stronger than the other. Or maybe it just feels that way because I’m thinking more about the happy event. I feel kind of guilty feeling this, like I’m somehow betraying my thoughts of the other. But I know deep down it’s still there - the sadness of losing. Until we win, I won’t be truly happy. We have to win. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t let it not happen.
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