Music. Books. Softball. Sports. Chocolate. Nutella. Crunch. Kitkat. Hershey's. Reese's. Truffles. Chocolate. Food. Chocolate.
I'm obviously obsessed with chocolate
me: mom, would you accept me if I were a lesbian?
mom: I’d accept you if you were an elephant.
that didn’t exactly answer my question, but it’s nice to know I’d be accepted as an elephant. Haha.
NOT that I am a lesbian, btw. I just wanted to pose that question to my mom to see her reaction. :P
What an awful time to be me.
So last night I realized that I haven’t been a very good friend. I realized how self-absorbed I’ve been lately. Softball, studying, music, hanging out. Those activities I do… they’re all for me. For my benefit. But I should have been there for her. I haven’t been reaching out. Giving up my time to help someone else.
And then I just read my friend’s post about how she helped out in this relief operation. How she made a difference. How she took charge and stepped out of her comfort zone. How life-changing it was for her.
And I barely volunteered. I keep making excuses. “I have softball” or “I have to study”, but they’re all bull.
And then I just read a heartbreaking first-hand account of someone’s experience during Typhoon Yolanda. And I kind of feel awful. Because I’m feeling bad about the fact that I feel like I’m a bad person, when people out there are suffering.
I am not suffering. I have barely suffered, so I don’t have the right to feel like this. No, I don’t feel like I’m suffering, but I feel awful about myself, which is stupid, because I shouldn’t even be thinking about myself. I should be thinking about others.
Sometimes, I really just hate my personality. Which, now that I realize it, is just another excuse. I’m blaming my personality? That’s just blaming yourself without trying to blame yourself.
So now, I really just dislike myself. Hate is too strong a word.
Who am I to think that my only redeemable quality is to want to help the Philippines, when the only thing I’ve done to help the victims of the typhoon is to donate clothes and money and to give up a bit of my time?
Who am I to make excuses? To say that I haven’t been doing my part in this world because I still have to focus on my studies? Myself?
I can always make time, but I don’t. I’m selfish and I’m self-absorbed, and now I want to stop. I have to get-up and get going. Start doing things, instead of saying I’ll do it when the time comes.
Because I make the time. And I can make the time.
My problems are so menial compared to others. This post is so shallow in comparison to everything.
Damn it. I’m gonna stop writing and start doing.
"Alfons Maria Mucha (Ivančice, 24 July 1860 – Prague, 14 July 1939), often known in English and French as Alphonse Mucha, was a Czech Art Nouveau painter and decorative artist, known best for his distinct style. He produced many paintings, illustrations, advertisements, postcards, and designs."
reblog and make a wish!
this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)
OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.
I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS
LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL
IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS
holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS.
I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT
SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP
WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????
ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE
they said i could be anything, so i became a zanda.
(actually i just couldn’t find the zebra ears)
hahaha. happy halloween, everyone!